Twenty twenty-five is the year that broke me; if you know, you know.
However, I’ve been doing a lot of praying, thinking, and talking through my problems since my world crumbled around me, and I came across this quote a while back:
That quote aligns perfectly with some of the things I’ve been discussing with my therapist. He often talks to me about the importance of embracing the pain of what has happened, but not living in it.
I know he’s right; it’s important to keep moving forward, because life does not stop no matter how much we feel like it has.
There have been a lot of moments in my life that I felt like my life was absolutely over. The pain and trauma I felt in those moments was (at the time) insurmountable and I didn’t know how I’d be able to keep going- and yet, somehow, I did. Whether it was knowing that my children depended on me, or the fact that I had bills that had to be paid, or not wanting to let my loved ones down, I picked myself up over and over again and kept going.
I’m not stupid enough to think that was all me. Sometimes, it was God- pure and simple. When I think back to the days right after each of those life-altering moments in my past, I think about how I operated in auto-pilot for a while after each incident, and I know it was God who was carrying me through those days; I am so thankful for Him for that.
I have struggled for a while now to get past what happened to me in 2025. I don’t understand how it happened, or why, but despite still trying to wrap my head around it all, I know I have to move on. I can’t do anything to change what happened, so there’s no sense in wallowing in my pain and torturing myself with the “what if”s. All I can do is let it go and move forward into this new chapter of my life with an open mind.
Life does not look the way I thought it would at this point in my life, but life is not over. There are some things about my life that I really don’t like, but there are some things about my life that I absolutely love, too. And so, as I walk into 2026, I am choosing to embrace the good and let go of the bad. I can’t forget what has happened to me because it has had a profound effect on me and my life. However, choosing to live life focused on the positive things is an important choice and once I am actively making on a daily basis.
What happened has happened. I am choosing to free my mind from it by not letting it rule my thoughts anymore, and I am moving into this new chapter focused on the good in my present and future instead of the pain of my past.
